Thursday, July 16, 2009
i read a note my Grandma wrote back in 1923Grandpa kept it in his coat, and he showed it once to me
he said, "Boy, you might not understand, but a long, long time ago,
Grandma's daddy didn't like me none, but i love your Grandma so."
we had this crazy plan to meet and run away together
get married in the first town we came to and live forever
but nailed to the tree where we were supposed to meet instead
i found this letter, and this is what it said:
"if you get there before i do
don't give up on me
i'll meet you when my chores are through
i don't know how long i'll be
But i'm not gonna let you down
darling wait and see
and between now and then
till i see you again
i'll be loving you
love, me."
I read those words just hours before my Grandma passed away
in the doorway of the church where me and Grandpa stopped to pray
i know i've never seen him cry in all my fifteen years
but as he said these words to her, his eyes filled up with tears
"if you get there before i do
don't give up on me
i'll meet you when my chores are through
i don't know how long i'll be
But i'm not gonna let you down
darling wait and see
and between now and then
till i see you again
i'll be loving you
love, me."
posted at 10:30:00 PM
Tuesday, July 14, 2009
it's amazing how i can pen down my thoughts on blogger while i'm at the bus stop! well anyway, it was really great meeting up with old friends at Dory's 21st birthday party last night. think i haven't had that feeling of reminiscence in a REALLY long time. so it was time well spent! =)
and thanks to Dory for having us!
posted at 10:17:00 AM
Thursday, July 09, 2009
perhaps it's not all that difficult to forgive, but perhaps it's not even a matter of forgiveness. i reckon i can honestly convince myself not to think about it, convince myself that i no longer hold it against anyone and convince myself that it's time to remove these shackles and move on with life. i mean, who doesn't have a past?
i think the short but loud exchange of considerations last night triggered these flashbacks about how it used to gnaw at my insides. but time does flush the unwanted away and i must say time has done a good job. i guess it no longer haunts me at all and i reckon it's all but an effort to warn myself not to waste anymore time; it's just not worth it.
i've had many friendships and i have to say, this particular one is my greatest regret. i mean it with every inch of my soul and being. but i've long put down any form of emotion stemming from this matter and i've done a good job indeed. i believe i've handled awkward situations and my conduct in an extremely civil manner and damn, i'm good.
but it all stops at being civil.
posted at 12:05:00 PM
Tuesday, July 07, 2009
met rae and auntie jen today and realised i really haven seen them in a long time and it was really great hanging out with them again. with all our random jokes/quotes/funny videos, it was an enjoyable afternoon spent! =)
and of course we fiddled with photobooth to much amusement.
haha can't wait, sam's coming back in a few hours, rae and family's back, alex and ben coming down in aug. school's starting then too, think these few months will be filled with great friends, company and fun! =)
posted at 12:56:00 AM
Thursday, July 02, 2009
pictures of bagel we took yesterday. it was great seeing fel kel and manda together, it's been a while. it has always been lunching/shopping with fel, tuition/hanging out with manda but haven't been hanging out with all three of them together. which is something i guess i miss? cos it used to be rather frequent like every week? with sam as well. well at least sam'll be coming back next week and it has been long indeed. =)
guess who?!
posted at 1:02:00 PM
Thursday, July 16, 2009
i read a note my Grandma wrote back in 1923Grandpa kept it in his coat, and he showed it once to me
he said, "Boy, you might not understand, but a long, long time ago,
Grandma's daddy didn't like me none, but i love your Grandma so."
we had this crazy plan to meet and run away together
get married in the first town we came to and live forever
but nailed to the tree where we were supposed to meet instead
i found this letter, and this is what it said:
"if you get there before i do
don't give up on me
i'll meet you when my chores are through
i don't know how long i'll be
But i'm not gonna let you down
darling wait and see
and between now and then
till i see you again
i'll be loving you
love, me."
I read those words just hours before my Grandma passed away
in the doorway of the church where me and Grandpa stopped to pray
i know i've never seen him cry in all my fifteen years
but as he said these words to her, his eyes filled up with tears
"if you get there before i do
don't give up on me
i'll meet you when my chores are through
i don't know how long i'll be
But i'm not gonna let you down
darling wait and see
and between now and then
till i see you again
i'll be loving you
love, me."
posted at 10:30:00 PM
Tuesday, July 14, 2009
it's amazing how i can pen down my thoughts on blogger while i'm at the bus stop! well anyway, it was really great meeting up with old friends at Dory's 21st birthday party last night. think i haven't had that feeling of reminiscence in a REALLY long time. so it was time well spent! =)
and thanks to Dory for having us!
posted at 10:17:00 AM
Thursday, July 09, 2009
perhaps it's not all that difficult to forgive, but perhaps it's not even a matter of forgiveness. i reckon i can honestly convince myself not to think about it, convince myself that i no longer hold it against anyone and convince myself that it's time to remove these shackles and move on with life. i mean, who doesn't have a past?
i think the short but loud exchange of considerations last night triggered these flashbacks about how it used to gnaw at my insides. but time does flush the unwanted away and i must say time has done a good job. i guess it no longer haunts me at all and i reckon it's all but an effort to warn myself not to waste anymore time; it's just not worth it.
i've had many friendships and i have to say, this particular one is my greatest regret. i mean it with every inch of my soul and being. but i've long put down any form of emotion stemming from this matter and i've done a good job indeed. i believe i've handled awkward situations and my conduct in an extremely civil manner and damn, i'm good.
but it all stops at being civil.
posted at 12:05:00 PM
Tuesday, July 07, 2009
met rae and auntie jen today and realised i really haven seen them in a long time and it was really great hanging out with them again. with all our random jokes/quotes/funny videos, it was an enjoyable afternoon spent! =)
and of course we fiddled with photobooth to much amusement.
haha can't wait, sam's coming back in a few hours, rae and family's back, alex and ben coming down in aug. school's starting then too, think these few months will be filled with great friends, company and fun! =)
posted at 12:56:00 AM
Thursday, July 02, 2009
pictures of bagel we took yesterday. it was great seeing fel kel and manda together, it's been a while. it has always been lunching/shopping with fel, tuition/hanging out with manda but haven't been hanging out with all three of them together. which is something i guess i miss? cos it used to be rather frequent like every week? with sam as well. well at least sam'll be coming back next week and it has been long indeed. =)
guess who?!
posted at 1:02:00 PM
